The longer I stand here The louder the silence I know that you're gone but sometimes I swear that I hear Your voice when the wind blows So I talk to the shadows Hoping you might be listening 'cos I want you to know I can't really keep it in any longer and let it fester. I don't know why I torture myself with this either. It'll upset me for the rest of my life but if I put it out somewhere maybe it'll make me feel at least marginally better. I don't know, but it's worth a try anyway. So here's a letter for you. I'm sorry I let you down. I should have been there for you like you were always there for me. I'm sorry we grew apart. I'm sorry I stopped answering your calls. I hope you still knew how much you meant to me even if I didn't show it as much as I used to. How much you still mean to me even though you're gone. You needed me and I let you down. It's not fair. It's too late to tell you now. It's too late for everything. If I had known, I would have answered the phone that night. But that's not an excuse. I have no excuse. It's so loud inside my head With words that I should have said And as I drown in my regrets I can't take back the words I never said I never said I can't take back the words I never said Never said I can't take back the words I never said I'm so sorry. You must have thought I had given up on you. You must have felt so alone. I know how that feels and yet I was selfish. If I had a second chance, it would be different. But there aren't any second chances. Not where you've gone. I'll say again the last thing I said when I saw you, laying there like you were sleeping. Thank you for everything. So much to tell you, and most of all... goodbye.